Wednesday, April 25, 2012

2 Weeks


Amelia and I had our 2 week appointments today.

I am doing great. I can start driving and I can lift her carseat into the car now!
 I am no longer stuck at home. THANK GOODNESS. 

Amelia is doing great too! We were worried she wasn't eating enough because she only eats for 10 minutes at a time... but apparently I shoot milk down her throat because she has gained a whole pound since we have been home!

Her stats--
weight: 8 lbs 4 oz... 58%
height: 21 1/4 inches... 92%

We have a long string bean!

She eats about every 2-3 hours during the day, if I can wake her up! and at night I try to hold her off about every 3 hours. 

She has been doing really good and keeping us really busy!
She sleeps ALL day and is wide awake all night. It is really tiring, but we are making it. 
It is sooo cute seeing Anthony play with her. She is already a daddy's girl. She follows his voice around the room and stays wide awake for him.

At night she grunts like she is constipated and it makes her cry! It is so sad and she does it all night. I asked the doctor what to do and she didn't really help. She said that Amelia is just getting used to her bodily functions... but it sounds so painful I just cuddle her all night. 

She is feeding very well. I seem to be making more milk than she can drink though and I don't know what to do... I have been pumping, but I don't know what to do with all this milk in my fridge and freezer! Any suggestions?

Anthony Graduated!! Woo WHO!





Anthony graduated from BYU!!

He graduated in Business Management with an emphasis in Finance. 
I am so proud of him. He worked so hard over the past 4 years.



Now we are off to big adventures in New York!

Monday, April 23, 2012

Amelia Nicole Brown... April 11, 2012

My baby girl is almost 2 weeks old. I decided I should stop hogging her to myself.

Anyways, our baby girl is finally here. I can't believe I am writing this already, because I thought about how it would go for so long. And it wasn't how I thought it would go at all... Sorry if this is long and very detailed... you can skip down to the cute pictures. I just don't want to forget it.

Here is how our baby girl entered our lives.

Monday, April 9: We went to a weenie roast at Grandma Brown's house. My feet and hands started to swell up pretty bad, but we figured that if it hadn't gone away by morning we would call the doctor.

Tuesday, April 10: Woke up and still completely swollen. I sat in bed thinking that this would help. Lying in bed, I realized I wasn't feeling her move. This freaked me out. She was normally quite the acrobat. I called my doctor's office to report my swelling and the lack of movement. They told me to go straight to labor and delivery to check the baby and they would also check the swelling.

I arrived at the hospital about 12:45. They admitted me and put the monitors on my stomach to make sure she was doing fine. I texted Anthony who was freaking out... wanting updates every 5 minutes. They said she was doing fine, but my blood pressure was off the charts. I had been having problems with my blood pressure the last few weeks, and this is what was causing my swelling. They monitored my blood pressure for about 2 hours and the nurse came in and said, "Looks like you are buying your ticket to being induced." Uhh, what?! I thought this was just a routine stress test and they would send me home soon. I texted Anthony and he left work and came right over. Around 5:00 the nurse came in and said the doctor was going to induce me.

I called my mom and they walked me into my laboring room, Room 105. The baby hadn't dropped at all, I wasn't dilated at all, and I was probably 25% thinned. I wasn't really looking forward to long labor ahead of me . I was basically starting at ground zero. The nurse came in about 6:00 and inserted some medication that was supposed to soften my cervix. It had to stay in for 12 hours. After 12 hours, they would start the pitocin.

Wednesday, April 11: Well, the medication started my contractions around midnight. I can't really explain what it felt like, but it hurt... I got no sleep that night. Around 5:00 in the morning the contractions were full blown labor contractions lasting about 20 seconds and were 1-2 minutes apart. I thought for sure I would be at least dilated to a 5 when the nurse came in to check. Well, 6:00 rolled around and she came in. I was at a 0, the baby hadn't dropped and it didn't soften anything! I was basically in labor without any progression.

At 6:30 they started pitocin. They offered an epidural, but I said no. If I would have known the outcome of my delivery, I would have gotten one! This made my contractions very regular. They last about 30-45 seconds and were 1-2 minutes apart. We practiced all of our training. The breathing, the positions, the walking, the relaxation... I am so grateful we took the Lamaze classes. My mom came around 7 and we just waited. The pain was so bad I was in tears, but Anthony was such a strong coach. I would have gotten an epidural if he wasn't there. There is no way I could have done it without him.

At 8:30, the pitocin was being administered at the highest level. The nurse came in. Nothing. Nothing had happened.

9:00 the doctor came in. This wasn't my doctor. My doctor decided to spend Spring Break with his family at home so he was not available all week. The doctor said we had 4 options:
1. C-Section right away.
2. Stay on Pitocin for another 9 hours. See what happens, but probably get a c-section at 6:00 pm.
3. Send me home to labor on my own. But probably get a c-section tomorrow.
4. Start another round of the meds to soften my cervix and see where we are tomorrow, with a 50% chance of having a c-section.

The doc left and let Anthony and I have some time to talk it over.

This was my WORST nightmare coming true. I was planning on going completely natural and not wanting to be all drugged or my baby being drugged. This was so much worse... I started freaking out. Hyperventilating, sobbing...

Once I came to terms with our situation and explored all the outcomes, we decided a C-Section would have to suffice. I am so grateful I went with this option...

9:30: The anesthesiologist came in and asked a bunch of questions, and left. The nurse came and said my real doctor heard what was happening and decided to come do the surgery himself! I was so relieved. I love my doctor and I am so grateful he cared enough to come see me. He knew my birth plan and knew that I was really struggling with what was happening.

10:00: I went into the OR and they gave me a Spinal Block. This made my whole body numb. I have never had surgery so this was really weird. Anthony came in and sat by my head. Then the doctors poured in. Of course Anthony stood up and watched the whole thing...

10:34:
Amelia Nicole Brown
made her first appearance

7 lbs 10 oz
21 inches
We stayed at the hospital until Sunday. We enjoyed many friends and family. I also loved spending 8 straight days with  my amazing husband. I couldn't ask for a better support system.

I know a c-section was not what I planned, but I am very grateful for that option. When she came out, we learned that her cord was prolapsed (the cord was trying to exit before the baby.) If I would have tried vaginally, it would have been an emergency c-section with a lot of scarier possible complications. Her head was also quite large and wouldn't have fit. They found that my hips are very narrow and it  just wouldn't have worked out.

Anthony's sexy suit

I look kind of out if it..
My mom and Ron watched from outside.











We had so many visitors. So many people to greet our little angel into this world.
(Sorry if I fell asleep while you were visiting... I was a bit tired)















We  are so in love with our baby girl. She fits with us so well and I am so glad she is ours!!

Monday, April 9, 2012

38.5 weeks... holy cow.


37 Weeks

38.5 Weeks!
Well, it has been way too long. Completely missed March. I have zero motivation to do much of anything...

I have 10 days until the due date, but I have a feeling I am going to be going passed the due date. I am only dilated to a finger tip... whatever that means. Is that a one? She hasn't dropped and I am barely thinned. I have to pee so much! I only have one craving... ICE WATER. This doesn't help the peeing problem. I wake up every hour thinking I am going to die if I don't get ice water... so I also have to pee every hour.

I have been done working for a week now. I am so bored! I kind of wish I was still able to work, but there is no way I can stand for 9 hours. Baby is posterior and knocks against my tail bone constantly... It is killer. And now she is on my sciatic nerve. I had heard about how painful it can be, but WOW... I can't believe how it can just seize my whole body. 

On Saturday night, I actually started having contractions in my back and really sharp pains.They were nowhere near consistent and I couldn't tell when they started or ended because it would start as back pain and then get intense and return to back pain... I thought "This is it!"... Nope, just a painful night. The doctor told me to start going on long walks. I added my own little twist to it. I straddle the curb and walk with one foot on the sidewalk and one foot on street. My  neighbors look at me really funny, but I don't care! I am ready to be done and meet my little baby. 

The nursery is done. We have everything we know of that we need. I am sure there are things we don't know about, but it will be fine. I am never going to make a blanket for a baby shower until I am a grandma. We have so many blankets!

 I am so ready to be DONE. It is a weird feeling to not want to be pregnant anymore, but to be so scared to have a baby. Not the labor part, but the actual taking-the-baby-home and wondering if I will like it. I know everyone tells me that you will automatically love the baby and it will all  come naturally... but I am so scared that I will hate being a mom.. I know it is weird, but I guess I am afraid of all the changes I hear about and changes I don't even know about! It will be fine, just having too much time on my hands to think about everything!